I have an uneasy feeling that I have “let my public down”. Not that I have an enormous public, but we seem to be a friendly band of brothers and sisters and I enjoy reading your comments. I have not posted for nine days now, but Statcounter tells me that you are still visiting my site. And this morning I see that I have again been mentioned in despatches on the NHS Blog Doctor site, despite having no new “product” over the past week.
I think there are three reasons for this silence. In the first place, the novelty of blogging is over for me. Like any new project, once the initial enthusiasm has worn off it is either abandoned or it settles down to a more reasonable level of activity that can be sustained in the long term. A bit like marriage, really!
Next, I have found myself short of time. As well as blogging I have three other hobbies which can consume large amounts of time (a Jack of all trades, me), I've had to sort out the finances and some other matters at the practice, and my wife and family deserve a bit of attention from time to time. Oh yes, and I seem to have quite a busy day job.
Finally, I am feeling happier in myself and have less need to air my passionate grievances. Work has been relatively stress-free for a few weeks (probably because none of the partners have been on holiday) and I seem to be content with my persona of a middle-aged GP. Partly this is because I feel less trapped. Now that our youngest is about to leave home and the delights of paying fees to schools are ending, I am no longer financially obliged to stay in this job. Not that I have any immediate plans to leave, but the fact that I remain a GP by choice makes a considerably difference to my perception of the job.
Blogging is perhaps the same. I no longer have a burning need to blog but I will continue to do so by choice, albeit at a more leisurely pace.